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Just Another Day


It’s though sometimes, some days you give up hope, on society, on people, on everything. Compared to last winter at work, there has been so many dogs, non stop, every time there one empty…there two more dogs to occupy the spot. Its overwhelming to see. Every day there cats that need to be euthanized for various reason, either sick, injured, or just because we need the space.

Yeah most of my day is spent cleaning shit. But I see these animals everyday, talk to them in a high pitched squeeky voice. Laugh when they do something silly, like steal toys from the toy box, pee on something they shouldn’t be peeing on. Get annoyed when that dog that has been here forever, uses your arm as a human chew toy. I would never want to see anything bad happen to any of them. I want to see them all succeed. After all they aren’t here because they choose to be. Their here because we have put them here, “a puppy was too much, he eat everything, he pees on the floor, new baby, new life, moving, no time” there always an excuse. Yes, I am aware I have a job because society put them here. 

I have nor will I ever give up on an animal. I see the good in all of them. I see the work some need more then others. I’m not happy or excited about an animal that fails or that doesn’t make it out alive. I don’t wish death on any of them. Sadly some will not make it out alive. But I can’t lose it and break down everyday. You need to be strong but you don’t need to be hollow.

I worry and often question those who show no remorse, no sadness, nothing, no caring. Do you hide those emotions? Or are they just not their? Is this just a job? Maybe to some people it is just a job, something you do to get by. Yeah I’m just getting by to… but at the end of the day, I have this happy feeling of knowing I have made a different for that sad lonely animal, It makes me happy inside to see them happy to see me. It makes me sad to see them sad and afraid.

Some say it is different when it is your own pets. So what are you saying? Just because they are not yours, should you not feel a certain way. I treat them like they are mind. I take care of them, they are mine, my little orphans waiting for the right home to come along.  I may never make a difference in some humans life…but I’m alright with that, I’ve made a different in a lot of animals lives. 

In my life animals are a big part of it, taking care of them is my life, to me this is just another day, another day in my life

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Times Up!


I’ve been finding it hard lately to put my thoughts into words. But I thought a quick post on some different feelings and thoughts might help clear my mind and help with my writing.

You know the other day, about 7 cats/kittens where dropped off at the shelter. The shelter that is already full and no room as it. So of course this meant 7 cat kennels needed to be emptied to make room for the 7 new crates of animals waiting for a spot. Most of us have a hard time picking who should stay and who should go. They all were friends and so nice, some just babies, some just scared. Usually we look for the sick ones, they would just infect the rest with URI or any of disease they might be carrying. But this day, there was no sick ones, and those that were, we had bonded and were trying to save. It is one of the hardest things to do, how do you choose which cat has more priority over the next, who deserves to live? They all do, but there no room, and maybe it is better there last days were spent in a warm blanket with food and water, and someone to snuggle them and love them for the little time they had left. It’s not like this is new. It happens everyday! Everyday someone dies to make room for the next. It’s a sad cycle really.

When I walk into the receiving area, I feel like my life is just on repeat, vaccinate everyone new…. it seems like every time I go in there, they all are new! Like didn’t I just do this yesterday? Yes, yes I did, but yes that’s right, all those other cats came, and needed to make room. 

I don’t really understand how the no kill revolution is suppose to work? What do you do with all these animals? Especially during low adoption peaks, and high in take peaks. Where do they all go? Yes, I would love to see no kill happen, but with the amount of homeless animals out there now, how is it possible! Or is it, you send them to another shelter, and they do that for you? We do send animals to other shelters, after awhile I wonder if people ever inquire about them? Who knows, maybe it will happen, and I  will just have to sit back and wait for it to happen. In the meantime people will drop off there pets, and my life will continue on repeat until that day.

When people say they have a hard job, it makes me laugh. You have a hard job? I just had to pick animals to die? But you have a hard job? Until you have watch little kittens have to be euthanized, who life has just begun, they didn’t stand a chance. Until you witness what man has done to his best friend. I refuse to think anyone has a harder job then those who work in an animal shelter. But yes we do it, because we love them, and will do what we need to, to keep them safe, even if safe means they will be sent to heaven at the end of the day.

They Know….


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It was one of those days today. I befriended this dog a few weeks ago. He was a cutie, a little nervous of his surroundings but nothing in my eyes that was major concern. Today was his day, to see if he would make it for adoption. Unfortunately he did not make it. I went to go find him, knowing in the back of my head it was not good for him. I found him in his kennel, in a pool of his own drool. He was anxious, he was nervous….. he knew.

As I sat outside of his kennel, with my hand on the fence, he placed his paw up onto my hand. We weren’t very close friends, but I was still his special someone who would take him out for a run every now and then. I told him to sit, he did, give paw, he did, lay down, he did. He kept licking my hand, still drooling. I took him out for one last run, it the dog park, let him off leash and he just ran around, happy.

They know, they all know. Dogs are not dumb. It’s sad to see, when they start doing things out of the ordinary for them. I always see something in those with issues. They have a life before they end up in a shelter, they didn’t just come from nowhere, they all came from somewhere, someones home, someones family, and now they are just a stray with a time limit, and no one comes looking for them….

My heart hurts for them. Especially those ones who are so scared, right up until there last moments. You just want to tell them it’s okay, tell them it is alright, and that you are there for them and not going to hurt them. I looked into the eyes of one of those dogs today. He finally came up to me, let me pet his nose. Those sad scared eyes looking at me. I told him it was going to be okay, he won’t have to be scared anymore, he will finally be at peace soon.

There is so much good that comes from an animal shelter, but behind the scenes there is all these sad moments, sad cases. Days where you just want to quit, because you can’t take it anymore. How do people treat animals so badly. How do you just lose your animal and not bother to look for it, how this and how that. You wouldn’t abandon your child, why is it okay to abandon an animal?

I couldn’t save you


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Spent three days trying to get to know you
Hoping you’d see life wasn’t so blue
Gaining your trust was a must.
Hours of just sitting on the ground
While you just growled and looked around
Yes I am here, I was always there.
Spent an hour reading your files
Your owners drove for miles
To give you a life that would be better
Even I never thought I’d be writting this letter
You stole my heart, in the end it was ripped apart
Left for the pieces to mend, I was left without my friend
I couldn’t save you, I really wanted too
I saw more in you then just your troubled dog
Sometimes I hear your bark through the fog
It’s hard to be a pitbull in a world where you have been ban
Society has become a hard thing to understand.
Because of that it has failed you
You are no longer here, and now I am blue
Some days I just don’t know what to do.
It helps to know I made your last days fun
playing frisbee in the sun,outside for a run.
I’m sorry I couldn’t save you, believe me I tried
Many saddened tears I have cried.
I’m sorry I wasn’t the last thing you’d see
I really wish it was me
But I wasn’t there, and don’t ever feel like I didn’t care
The reason I can not share, but you know why
As time goes by, I’ll always think of you.
You won’t be the last to grab my heart,
or the last to watch it fall apart.
But it will mend, and another dog I will be friend
and the cycle will start all over again.
I try my best to stay true,
There will always be a part of me
that is sad I couldn’t save you.

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He was not euthanized because of the ban, but he had come from a place where there was a ban, and sent for a chance at the shelter, unfortunately with his background history and not passing our temperament test, he could not be placed for adoption, sadly he was euthanized. I loved this dog like one of my own, I love them all, sadly you can’t save them all, but you can make their time with you wonderful and fun and worth wild, and this is what I did for him<3

Hello Spring…..Thanks For The Kittens….


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Welcome to spring time, or for anyone working in an animal industry, welcome to kitten season. You would think seeing beautiful little furry babies would make one happy and smile, yes it does… But after the smiling reality sets in. What does one do with so many kittens. Animal shelters receive so many cats and kittens during spring and summer months. With very little room, and not enough foster home(more then likely most of the foster homes are full with kittens) the only option left is to humane euthanize some of these animals. (Okay let’s be honest it’s more then just some, its a large percentage that is euthanized) According to the ASPCA website:

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Feeding some motherless kittens currently in foster care.

“Approximately 5 million to 7 million companion animals enter animal shelters nationwide every year, and approximately 3 million to 4 million are euthanized (60 percent of dogs and 70 percent of cats). Shelter intakes are about evenly divided between those animals relinquished by owners and those picked up by animal control. These are national estimates; the percentage of euthanasia may vary from state to state.”

It is such a sad things to see animals not make it because of overcrowding and irresponsible owners who do not spay and neuter their animals. It’s also sad when you have day old kittens make their way into the shelter and they have no mother. A lot of work is put into caring for each one and helping the animal to survive, often there are times when these babies do not make it.

My first litter of foster babies, they were found in a bag tightly tired closed and left in the woods to die. Only two survived, the rest died of health issues.

Maybe the most sickening thing out of kitten season, is how these animals are found. Other then the stray cat having kittens in your barn, under your step or in your yard. A lot of these animals are found abandoned in boxes, bags, left in the woods, or on the side of the road.

It really makes you wonder about the kind of world we live in, when dropping kittens off to fend for themselves in hazardous places. What kind of heart do you have? You don’t even have the balls to drop them off at the shelter? You just think its okay to leave them wherever to take care of themselves?

My first foster litter had been found in a walking trail in the woods, left in a  re usable sobeys bag that was tightly tied shut and left to die. A person walking their dog spot a bag moving and opened it up to find the kittens. When your working in animal shelters, you see and hear so much cruelty and mean things people do. What is wrong with society? Will this ever change? Why do people get pets when they won’t get them fixed? So many unanswered questions, and so many sad moments, not just for kittens, but cats and dog as well.

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My current foster mama and one of her babies

Somewhere Over the Rainbow…Bridge


For those who are not familiar with the Rainbow Bridge, this is where animals go when they pass away. To a place , much like the picture where they live in peace with each other, dogs , cats, rabbits, you name it. The sad part of the story for most pet owners, is that while the animal is at rainbow bridge, they are waiting…waiting for the day when they meet there loved ones again.

I am a huge animal lover, and this is the part that makes me sad, I’ve lost many animals in my life, my own pets, friends pets, and animals at the animal shelter that I befriended. I do hope to someday meet up with all of them when my time comes. I am sure there will be tons more in my life.

Animals are now considered to be part of the family, instead of just the house pet. To lots of the population including myself, I consider my pet to be my child. For anyone who has lost a family member can understand how hard losing a pet is.

It is tough with animals, sometimes they become ill, and euthanizing becomes a hard question for pet owners to answer. The only one able to answer if it is the right choice or not is the owner. No one knows that animal better then its’ owner. Only that person can tell the quality of life for the animal and if it is the right choice or not. Sometimes it is really hard that you just wish the animal could tell you if they are in pain or not.

For anyone who has ever owned animal, can understand just how much love and joy they bring, and when it is their time to cross over to the bridge, it becomes the most hardest choice and time in a pet owners life. However it is very important to remember the joy and fun and great times you have shared with the animal, I thinking knowing you gave the animal the best life it could have, becomes the greatest thing you could have done. Animals love unconditionally and returning that to the animal is all an animal can ask for.

A Shelter Story…Good-bye


My mommy left me a month ago
Sitting here without a home
I watched her cry and walk away
In this cage is now where I stay
Behind these steal gates I watch her go

Nervous and scared here I am
Sitting and wishing I was with them
Now here I am with one meal a day
Wishing she come take me home to play

Mommy moved and left me here,
couldn’t take me, knowing life ain’t fair
This is suppose to be for the better
and sometimes I wish I hadn’t met her

Then I wouldn’t have to say goodbye
left in the kennel wondering why
Here I am left to find a new place to rome
wishing someone would take me home

Days go by and nights get long
wishing and hoping, trying to stay strong
People pass without a glance
I wish someone would give me a chance

Take me home and I’ll be your friend
Take me home before my life comes to an end
But no one wants me they don’t care
or wonder why I ended up here

My days are number as my life gets short
no one there for support
Out of the kennel they took me today
maybe heaven is a better place to stay

The staff take me away,
telling me its gonna be okay
As they hug me I see tears in ones eye
as she softly whispers I’m sorry …I tried

Within seconds I am put to rest
maybe its for the best
One empty cage means room for another
who had to leave their mother

Because of problems were they had to move
leaving the puppy in the pound
with nothing to prove
Just waiting for his time to come around

So this is for every animal that had to die
For every animal who’s owner didn’t even have a reason why
For every stray left for dead
As responsible owners lay home with their animal tucked in bed

Next time you walk in a shelter and walk away
from the ugly dog who can sit and stay
Remember without help he might not see another day
so take em home, save his life, and watch him obey

Because that’s all we ever wanted was your love
Not to be looked after by shelter staff in gloves
But to be owned by someone who is true
Somebody kind enough to love you like I do

Wrote this poem back in 2007, after a dog I had befriended at the animal shelter I volunteered at was put to sleep. I still think about that dog to this day.